It is a very hectic week for me. Now, I am planning to get away from Singapore for a break in May after the major event as I am on the verge of breaking down as I have been handling many proejects with a lot of things going on in my private life. The SOEasy migration happened for two days during this week when all the staff in my department are changing their old computers to new ones and I had to attend to their problems and coordinate in the changes of schedules for some colleagues. It could be so bad that I was running up and down between the fifteenth and fourth floors; between the IS department and mine for two days. Moreover, it is also my peak period for the preparation of a major event which involves one of the Ministers where I am required to prepare papers and reports. I simp-ly had got no time to sit down and wirte the reports and papers and made careless mistakes. The worse thing was one or two staff refused to cooperate and I had to handle them, causing a lot of frustration and hindrance on the projects I am handling. Little did they realize that their self-centeredness had caused hindrance or delay in delivering certain projects generally when they ironically claimed that those projects are important. I lost my patience with one of them when she started to defend herself and continued to head her way home even as she could not contact the vendor and pushed the blame to me that I only hurried her to contact the vendor after lunchtime. The fact was that my reporting officer or her reporting officer had gone to her regarding such matter before lunchtime and we decided not to go to her again, trusting that she would do what was necessary. Obviously, her words of self defence and failure to contact the vendor and went home had proven otherwise. So, my report could not complete on time which hinders the whole project from moving on. Also, some bosses insisted on having their ways regardless of the situation. So, what can I say? This only drives me to be creative finding solutions to get what they want.
Nevertheless, what keeps me going strong are the colleagues who had helped me out by moving all the computers of the colleagues who happened to have meeting at the last minute during the stipulated time to Level 4. I did not ask them to help me. But, they just quietly helped me with their actions without uttering a word. What also touched me was that one of the colleagues, despite inconvenience to her work for the top management was willing to swop her timeslot of getting the new computer from morning to afternoon one with a boss who insisted on wanting the morning timeslot at the last minute due to her urgency to use her laptop with the arrangement of a last minute meeting with her boss. I was more than happy to keep on helping as much as I could though I was torn between my projects. I am also thankful that one of my teammates and reporting officer were supporting me in preparing the papers and reports for the major event. I experience God's Love through them. Somehow, deep within me, no words can express my appreciation towards them for such help without expecting any praises or recognition from anyone. When I thanked them, one of them actually thanked me for taking up my role for being an IT coordinator for the department and helping out. This is indeed paradise from these helpful colleagues without being calculative out of the hell from a few colleagues who were self centered.
I also learn that prayers do sharpen my awareness of God's Love through the people outside church. I see more clearly God's Love through these helpful colleagues with regular prayers. Though I still complain alot, I have also begun to be thankful for the help that I get out of these helpful colleagues. In my case, surprisingly, I see Christ more easily outside church in places like my workplace, family, social circle who are not even Christians. I am also very thankful that God does speak to me and teach me how to love more and more like a human through my daily interaction with people. I really appreciation the time when my family members, friends and even colleagues teach me things about relationships and learn to love instead of being too serious in my work and too task-oriented. Words of advice may not sound pleasant to my ears and yet they are essential for me to grow. If I choose to have them falling to my deaf ears, I can never grow. At least, these people bother to warn or advise me. They are my saint makers. I really appreciate them after I have bumped into many people who do not even bother to stop for awhile to care at all over the years.
How about you? Try to spend some quiet time to review your life. Give thanks to God for the people who take the risks of getting scolded by you through warning or advising you before you fall too deep or do it out of concern for your growth. Give thanks to people who offer you kind actions and words of encouragement and love. Give thanks to the people who quietly walk with you which you may not even realize. Give thanks to God for each day of your life that you have the blessings to be with your loved ones and friends. Only with a heart of gratitude, then a person can experience joy deep within anf lead life to the fullest. Such love is too overwhelming to be kept within. It can only be richer and richer through sharing. Only by being thankful, you will stay strong in the midst of all storms in your life as you know you are never going through them alone. No matter what, always give thanks to the Spirit of Love out of all the sharing with people in our lives. Giving thanks is an art to be appreciated. Simple but rich in Love.
With Love,
Elena
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