I was sitting in the living room watching my usual Hong Kong Cantonese drama serial. My nephew was playing by himself. He pushed his tricycle that I bought for him to the kitchen where there was a very small step at the entrance. Then, he tried to push the tricycle back to the living room but he could not due to that small step and the tricycle was abit too heavy for him. I decided not to help him and observed how he handled the situation.
He was crying for help. Somehow, something prompted me within not to help him but to observe. He was crying while trying to get the tricycle up the step back to the living room. The tricycle collapsed but he did not give up. He managed to pick the tricycle up to an upright position and continued to push it up the step back to the living room. He refused to give up. To my amazement, he managed to push the tricycle up the step and back to the living room. He even tried to push it extra miles across the living room to get into the master bedroom where the entrance of the master bedroom was too small for the tricycle to go in.
I have learnt a lesson from my two year old nephew who is also my godson. I admire his perseverance and unwavering faith which brings to my mind if I have such perseverance in my faith. Sad to say, my faith is not that strong where I actually could persever. Sometimes, I even try to escape where emotions get too strong. I do not like to handle feelings as I find them difficult to understand. I find it too much of hassles to handle them. So, I avoid most occasions, especially romantic relationships, when feelings run high or intense as I simply can't rationalize these matters of heart and feelings. I still prefer to stay in my head. But, by continuing with such life based on my mind, I can never grow. There must be a purpose why God gives me feelings. I am not a robot but a human with flesh and blood. How can I avoid feelings for the rest of my life? Even if God were to bless me with marriage, I close the doors by avoiding all occasions of romance. I will never learn to handle situations where feelings are involved. If I have the faith, I should not back off. Instead, I should learn to hang in there and depend on God to guide me with faith to go through it all.
When I am tempted, do I still persever with faith or do I give in? Jesus is my example for such perseverance in faith when he was tempted by the devil alone many times. As a man, if he refused to give in and overcome all temptation, it is possible for me to persever as a person. I don't need to do this alone but with Jesus in me. I get the strength also through every Eucharistic celebration and prayers and God's Word from Jesus. These tools are easily accessible to me. It is up to me to choose if I want to keep myself close to them for God's wisdom and strength.
I thank my nephew for showing me, even as a child, such perseverance is possible no matter how much heavier the tricycle seems to be. It is all about the faith and pereverance to get out of my comfort zone and overcome the obstacles in life. If a small child like him can overcome his obstacles with such unwavering faith and perseverance, how about me who have skills and intelligence and strength with God in me?
With Love,
Elena
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